It's a rabbity world out there

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2012-01-17T18:24:00.010Z

last week one patient crashed.

He was my patient and I remember speaking to the cons the morning of his death re his antiobiotics. But my cons reassured me and said, to continue with current treatment and monitor bloods. On that fateful day, I happened to be on the same bay as the patient reviewing another patient. Suddenly I heard a shout, from the auxillary nurse, 'doc doc, quick see this patient!' I turned my head to look across the bed and lo and behold, the patient laid motionless, as white as sheet and lifeless on the bed.

I used to wonder, if i were the first on the scene of a crash call, would I be confident enough to perform CPR. I didn't have time to think about that when I saw him. I rushed over, shook him violently and start yelling, 'mr x mr x can u hear me?'. No response. I checked his pulse. No pulse. And I started compressing his chest.

The nurse with me was shaking like a leaf. I said, 'quick, get the oxygen mask 15l and get the other two docs to come. Has the crash call been sent out yet.' I was amazed that I could even said something like that. soon my colleagues came and took over from me.

The patient passed away 30 min later after 3 shots of adrenaline and 30min of CPR.

i cant help but think if I have missed anything out with my management that could possibly have prevented his death. Should we have done more for his sepsis? he was in fact the youngest patient on my ward so it was very unexpected that he passed away.

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Today, another thing happened which I can't blog about but it has made me realised how much responsibility we (junior docs) have on patients' lives. I cant help thinking about it on my way back home...sigh. A lesson learnt but a costly one too...

I am not really good at penning my thoughts and feelings. These two incidents have made me feel rather disappointed at myself. Yes, i know i can improve on what I could have/should have done in the future but still it might cost a patient's life in every mistake that we make. The scary part is that this is just the beginning of my career and there are still more to come and more responsibilities to bear in the future.

2012-01-16T18:27:00.003Z

the ward is always a better place to work when your seniors are nice and friendly.

me love my consultant on my ward. it makes me aspire to be like her when i become one in the future.

2012-01-13T20:11:00.004Z

i have always been a fond reader of Roald Dahl to the point i bought the whole set of his books. I remembered the first book i read was Mathilda and it was so entertaining, funny, and unique. I loved the illustrations that went with it because i thought the odd-looking stick drawings of the people somehow fit in with the quirkiness of the story.

anyway, I have been reading thsi book called 'kiss kiss' on my way to work. never have i felt more entertained in the bus than before hahah. the short stories which i have read so far were quite morbid but i love the unexpected ending in each of them. just like when watching an intense, suspenseful movie, you could feel your heart thumping against your chest. This book gives you the same feeling of wanting to know what will happen next just that you have to read it slowly so that you don't miss the sequence.

don't know why i wrote this post because I don't see the purpose of it but this is just one of my daily ramblings of what my rather unexciting life. I remember when i was still a student, I used to read revision books in the bus but phew, I don't do that now. thank you Roald Dahl for making my trip to work less boring :)

PS: oh...I'm might be going for a holiday to Madrid in feb! I think it was an impulsive move to book my tickets even before my leave was approved but because the airtickets offer was ending soon and I had to do something quick. cant wait!

hello 2012

2012-01-03T22:21:00.012Z

it's 2012. cant believe how time flies. i remember when i first started med school in 2006, 2011 sounded so far away but now 2011 has ended and it's 2012. i'm getting old *shudders*

right...reflections for 2011! i cant really remember bad things that happened last year, either there wasn't any bad memories or my memory selectively remembers the good things. heheh.

1. friendships

I think we kinda grew closer this year because Y was staying together with MH and Thz in the same apartment. So we always visited them and ended up playing games at their house on most weekends.

2. went to graduation ball and had the best time of my life.

3. went to barcelona and germany with the siblings.

breathtaking view at Montserrat

kognisee, germany - would love to go back there again

4. cell group

was a cell group leader and got to know many of my cell members! Stressful at times but God led me through and I miss those times of leading.

5. i graduated!! and started work

graduating marked the close of one chapter and the opening of another in my life. The transition from a student to a young professional and the change from the familiar to an unknown environment.

i have stopped writing new year resolutions because I don't think I fulfilled any of them. haha. Not going to post them on this blog either or else paiseh if I don't meet them.

This year new year was different because I didn't choose to spend it in Leeds but in Hull. It was celebrated with sis (not with steph tho coz she was working) and a few friends. it was a small cosy group which I particularly liked because it wasn't very cramp and there were lots of food. No pictures yet but will post (if i have time) when i get the pics.

happy new year! :)

PS: oklah i changed my mind, maybe i should write my new year resolutions. the list is not exhaustive though:

1. get driving licence

2. do an audit (or at least one)

3. maintain weight

4. pass foundation year 1

5. get a boyfriend lol

6. get involved in a mission trip

7. achieve something which is non-clinical (haih need to start preparing for CMT)

2011-12-27T21:30:00.001Z

MRCP or MRCPaeds??

2011-12-17T00:07:00.003Z

woke up at 8.50 today when i was supposed to be work at 9am and my workplace is 40min away by bus!

funnily enough, i managed to wash and moisturise my face just before hoping onto the taxi to work . #vainpot lol

have a good weekend everyone! i'm going down to london tomorrow

2011-12-14T01:15:00.003Z

hi all!

some how i cant sleep because i just finished work and with all the adrenaline rush, i think i'm still suffering from the consequences of its effect.

it was changeover last wed, which means almost all junior doctors, change to a different rotation. So, i'm on elderly medicine ward at the moment.

initially i thought, hey it wasn't that bad...the doctors are nice etc. but this week, i think i'm starting to realise that elderly med is actually really bad. it's so understaffed that it's only my F2 and I on the ward. so I have to conduct my own ward round every day. plus, my registrar doesn't seem to understand the doctors hierachy very well coz he asked me if i was a GP trainee when it clearly said on my badge that i was a F1. I think he seemed quite annoyed with me coz i'm always asking him questions and he's always very miserable.

it's so sad to see patients dying too. maybe by the end of the rotation i will get used to it but still, it's depressing. I had to talk to a patient's wife today because the patient told his wife to speak to us. She agreed with us that he was not improving and seems to be dying anytime soon and she said she doesn't know why her husband kept pestering her to speak to us.

anyway, after talking to her, she went back to see her husband briefly before leaving the ward. When she was leaving, she suddenly grabbed my hand and said, 'doctor, i know why my husband wanted me to speak to you. he knows he's dying and he wants the doctor to tell me that. now he's happy that i know'.

i don't knwo how you felt but i felt very sad at that point. even at his deathbed, he was still concerned about his wife and he wanted her to know that he was going but he couldn't bear to speak about death to her.

so that's my random update on elderly medicine. i wonder if i can get any positiveness out of this rotation?

2011-12-14T00:59:00.002Z

'doctor, please, just let me die, please'

i never knew how depressing and helpless it would be for me to hear those words myself.

2011-12-11T21:09:00.000Z

useless post

2011-12-04T17:19:00.008Z

ok i should revive this blog coz it's kinda dead.

i should try to blog more often if you dont mind reading rather useless and boring posts. so boring i think i can hypnotize you to sleep.

but anyway! i have worked for 4 months now! I think i have learned a lot now compared to how i was in the beginning although i don't feel it. I remembered when i first started work, a nurse was asking my colleague to listen to a patient's chest because it sounded crackly. I remembered telling myself, 'woah what should I do, i would be so terrified to do anything'. now it will be like, 'cheh, crackles in lungs. nothing one. hahaha' (exaggerating only lol, i won't totally ignore the patient). and another thing i learned is: do not totally follow what the nurses tell you to do. Just because they have eaten more salt in the working environment, doesn't mean you have to do everything what they say. i digress.

dun wana talk about work, i wana talk about the things i bought with my first pay! actually i think it was even before my first pay that i bought them :S. haha. i'm using ipod to take the photos so the quality is quite bad.

i bought a keyboard and a guitar! I think the model is CDP 100. it's a full size keyboard with weighted keys but I don't really like the sound quality from the keyboard as I think yamaha one is better. Otherwise it was a really good keyboard for its price and it came with a stand and headphones too! I bought the guitar after looking on my uni portal ( i still had access that time) and one guy was sellign it second hand! so lucky!

so i thought since i started working, i should start looking after myself more. you know with those nights and winter months coming, I'd better start moisturising my skin and protect it from aging! i spent many hours loitering around the beauty section of a departmental store because i was so scared to approach the sales girl to ask questions HAHA. some of the products had no price tags on and i didn't know what the functions are (clarifying lotion, serum, cleanser, toner etc). who knows later i feel obliged into buying the products before doing proper research on others first.

i then went back and spent countless hours on the internet searching and looking for the best deals. I initially wanted clinique or clarins (but not lancome because steph uses it and i don't want to end up using the same as her LOL) but somehow i saw a few blogs which recommended shiseido and a rather newcomer brand hada labo. Knowing these are not easily available in the UK, i painstakingly searched the internet and managed to find a company which imports them at rather reasonable price.

The borghese cleanser was a rather impulsive buy coz it was on sales and it was quite cheap. I haven't started using it as i'm still using my other cleanser. I love the shiseido moisturising lotion to bits!i hv used a few moisturising lotions before and they are either sticky or cause redness on my face. this one doesn't stick to my face after applying and it's so smooth and absorbs so well! i think it was 37pounds for a 75ml bottle but it's the best i've tried! when i go back msia, i shall stock up on this brand.

the hada labo moisturising lotion (toner) is quite unique i think. It looks and feels like water but it's not. the way you apply the toner is by putting a few drops on your palm and pat it onto your face until it absorbs. i think my skin does feel soft and smooth after applying but i cant really compare to other toners coz this is my first toner.

I think that's all for today! it's been a crazy past one month with work and also shopping! so much shopping until i forgot what I've bought. that's the danger of staying only 5 min from major departmental stores like tk maxx and debenhams. but no worries, i'm also saving money daddy and mummy lol.

dear patients

2011-09-30T23:05:00.004+01:00

dear patients,

i wish you could stop pulling out your cannulas or NG tube because you know how difficult it is to put one in and yet you do not appreciate our effort and time in helping you get better.

I wish you could leave some sweets/chocolates (preferably not celebrations but Thorntons or something better or home bake food please) for us before being discharge because who knows it will be our lunch when it gets busy on the ward.

I wish you would know us by our first names instead of doctor coz it sounds more personal and it makes us feel more appreciated because you bothered to look at our name card.

I wish you would help us ease our burden by allowing the phlebs take your blood instead of requesting doctors to do it.

I wish you would know that there's no point trying to fake a pain because we know you are.

I wish you could differentiate us between nurses so that you do not call me a nurse whenever I walk past you.

I also wish that you wouldn't trouble us with things like trying to get to the toilet/commode but wait patiently for the nurses to respond to your buzzer.

2011-07-03T23:18:00.002+01:00

watch! the importance of having Christ in the centre of our lives :)

2011-06-02T02:10:00.002+01:00

totally random!

but a big HI to all my blog readers!!

Germany

2011-05-28T02:00:00.011+01:00

I just returned from a trip in Germany with the sisters. I really love Germany because the transport system is a lot better than UK and it's so organised! We got very confused a few times though and wasted some precious time waiting for a subway that never came because we didn't understand the system. But I like the way the transport works in which it tries to make traveling cheaper and easier for people traveling in groups. For example, the partner-day ticket allows a maximum of 5 people to travel on a 9.80euro day rider which would cost about 1.96euros per person which is so cheap!

anyway, not gonna talk much here heheh, let the pics do the talking.

lake Kognisee:

my fav shot:

Residenz museum

Neuschwanstein castle

Seeing the breathtaking scenery in lake Kognisee reminded me of how great our God is in creating such beauty. If the lake is that pretty already, I wonder how much more beautiful will heaven be? That, is beyond my imagination.

I thank God because when I prayed for good weather He provided us with sunny warm weather throughout the trip. It drizzled slightly on the first day in Berlin but for the rest of the trip in Munich, the castle and the lake, the weather was superb. The most amazing thing is that only when we were leaving Munich for the airport, it started raining. How good our God is!

Another thing is that there was a problem with our train ticket from the lake to Munich. we decided to take an earlier train which required us to get on a train to Salzburg and then get on an express train from Salzburg back to Munich. What we didn't know is that our ticket terms and conditions clearly stated in German that we were not allowed to use express trains. My instinct told me that I shouldn't board the train but we still did anyway and I was very worried that we might get kicked off the train lol. So the time came for the conductor to check tickets and I was pretty worried. Before he took a look at our ticket, I silently said a prayer asking God to let all things be fine with our tickets. The conductor shook his head when he saw our ticket and said "no, no, you shouldn't be using this train. Your ticket is only valid for slow regional trains." WIth that, he walked off to check others ticket.We were not fined or kicked off the train! how relieved I felt when he walked off, God answers even small prayers like this!

overall I also thank God for the smooth journey we had when the sisters traveled together. There were a few mini bickerings (as steph put it) throughout the trip but fortunately there wasn't any major emotional damage. I have also managed to withstand Steph's criticism who said the only good picture I took of her was this pic below lololol. hahaha :P

But am also glad and thank God that they tolerated me throughout the trip because I took them to walk a super long journey to Hofbrahaus instead of using the subway and they tolerated my crankiness and blurness haha. It's quite amazing how God gives people of the same parents and same upbringing different personalities and character and how we can still tolerate and love each other despite the differences. how boring life would be without these sisters around to keep me company heheh :)

2011-05-19T03:32:00.000+01:00

WE PASSED!!!

all glory to God :D

ok exams over, now what?

2011-05-18T14:36:00.008+01:00

many people have asked me what have I been doing since exams ended last thurs.

To be honest and I think everyone would agree, the busier times are usually after exams and not before because there are so many things to sort out and that includes Hull accom, employment contract and the upcoming Germany trip.

But every single day after exams we have been blessed with good food.

nasi lemak at Bette's house. I went over to learn some cooking tips from her. hehehehe. will try cooking it one day

MH the masterchef

yummy roast leg of lamb. It was really good!

we cooked for the house and Steph gatecrashed our dinner by suddenly turning up in front of our door

Next week the 3 sisters will be off in Germany and we haven't planned the itinerary for it yet. But the good thing is that we got accommodation and transport sorted.

2011-05-12T13:41:00.000+01:00

I don't know how to feel after my exams.

it's a long and anxious wait for results. All glory be unto God if I pass.

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness" - 2 Corinthians 12:9

2011-05-07T00:32:00.003+01:00

TWO DOWN AND TWO TO GO!!

something to thank God for...

He granted me physical strength to carry on today's test even though I was so tired as I haven't been sleeping properly for the past two nights. I was feeling very tired and my brain was too tired to carry on when I was revising during the quarantine period before my test. But 10 minutes before we were due to go in, I suddenly felt very alert, energised and refreshed. so really thank God for that :D

THE END IS NEAR!!

2011-05-02T01:44:00.001+01:00

Well not literally the end end but the end of this chapter in life.

So, I need prayers! For my exams, esp OSCE! Also pray for others sitting for 5th yr finals: Esther, Thaz, Yau, MH, Cindy, Bette, Ryle n Sing Yee. I think we are all prepared for exams (in terms if knowledge) already but having knowledge is useless if we don't know how to apply it. Nerves are always the main problem which can deter us from thinking clearly and cause us to stumble in our words. So do pray for God's peace and His clarity.

My exams schedule:
5,6th may - written n slide show
11,12th may- osce

Thanks!!

last day of lecture

2011-04-28T01:25:00.003+01:00

yesterday was the very last lecture in med school.

Somehow I felt very heavy-hearted. five years of med school is going to end in 2 weeks' time when finals are over. student life is going to end too! meaning to student discounts for me anymore lolz!

One chapter of life has closed and another is going to open soon.

Different place and different people.

gonna end with this Y U NO meme hahaha. i bet everyone must be super bored with it now.

Y U NO

2011-04-26T12:55:00.006+01:00

Y U NO GUY series has been fun to kill the boredom of revision.

on revision:

on exams:

on the rabbit at home:

on the weather:

end of placement!

2011-04-04T22:33:00.005+01:00

last friday was my last day of placement as a med student! I cant believe time flew by so fast! Another 5 weeks and it will be our finals.

I was pretty worried that I would not pass my end of placement assessment because I felt that I gave a very bad impression to my consultant. On different occasions, I have given the wrong answer to the same question three times during which my consultant had an exasperated look on his face. But thank God that I passed my assessment and also for His divine intervention because on the day before my assessment, another consultant gave me some feedback for my presentation which was very helpful. There was nothing to worry after all lol...because God is in control! Thank you all also for your prayers!

it feels sad to leave harrogate after spending 8 weeks there. We were given a house (a house house lol) to live during our stay there and I was housemates with D and F who were two very friendly Brits. On the last night of our stay there, we played the last game of monopoly deal and we each won a round!

Gonna miss the time in the Harrogate house with these two English friends! Just now at home, Esther was saying that F said hi to her and it was the first time a British person did that to her after lecture.

I'm very thankful to God for blessing me with the people around me. They could have been much worse than that but God has given me more than what I expected.

2011-03-11T02:18:00.000Z

Two things to praise God for this week:

1. Jon has started on a new med and praise God that he says he doesn't have any side effects from it! (other than 3 days of headache when he was first on it)

2. The inner peace I felt from God that I know He will be leading the way for me.

Have a good weekend!

Lots of love,
Janice

2011-02-20T01:38:00.000Z

The jobs allocation for foundation year came out last week and I got Hull!

For a while i wasn't very pleased with the results because Hull wasn't my first 50 choices (it was my 197th choice) and I wanted a paeds job in one of the districts in west Yorkshire. But after looking at the rotation I got, I felt that I should be grateful that I was given banded jobs (which means there are on calls, hence more experience n money lol) and my rotation consists of endocrinology, elderly n surgery which are quite good rotations in my opinion. So I am actually very happy with the allocations.

However I just realized today that I won't be able to go back to Leeds/Bradford (west yorkshire) in my fy2 as hull is categorised under the north Yorkshire deanery so I will be doing my fy2 training in the districts of north Yorkshire. It means that I will need to rebuild my network of friends and community. It also means I will be leaving Leeds for at least 2 yrs n might need to leave the responsibilities I have been entrusted upon as it willbe inconvenient for me to travel to and fro between hull n Leeds. I will not be there to witness the 'blooming' of my medics juniors as they enter phase II of med school n graduate. It's something like planting a flower from a seed and not being able to see it blossom.

I guess I have become very fond of Leeds afterall. Steph is working in Leeds next year so there's a place to stay when I come over for a visit. But I think what I will miss most would be serving God and His people in Leeds.

two things

2011-02-11T18:06:00.004Z

two things which left me in shock at the mere superficiality and biased comments made by people:

1. An anti-Valentine's Day campaign was launched this week to call Muslims to stay away from any valentine's Day celebration. What's even more infuriating was that there was a video circulating around on youtube (but unfortunately had been removed already) on a Dato who stated that clubbing, vices and secret/illegitimate sexual rendezvous by couples are a tradition for Christian societies! Such misleading statement without any basis!

the news about it can be read here and a response letter to it which is quite well-written

2. One of my friends posted a link on facebook titled, 'The Stupidity of Eve and Women' which can be found here. Don't waste your time reading it because the first two paragraphs are wrong and superficial. Very obvious that the person who wrote it is a male (who is a 'big fat sexist' as quoted by Esther) and doesn't have a good grasp of the bible. He claims that women today like Eve do not listen and 'defy the news and warnings...to pursue ultimate beauty' because of 'eve's genes inside them'. LOL. Hello? don't you and I have Eve's genes in us regardless of gender and if you call Eve stupid, you are also calling yourself an idiot. Such an idiot!

Hence I wrote a short comment on my friend's link so I will just post it up here:

"I agree with the part that says to slim down is to eat healthily, sleep properly etc. Slimming pills definitely don't work as its effect only last for a while. what is needed most is motivation.

However, I do not see the relevance to include Eve in this picture and blame it on her for starting the whole 'because Eve ate the fruit and therefore women has to suffer'. Where was adam when the serpent tempted eve and when she ate the fruit? He was with her all the time but he kept quiet. He did not stop Eve at all or challenge the serpent. He ALLOWED it to happen! Let's just say the author of this article tried to warned the women but they did not listen. period.But I personally do not think he should associate it Eve and eve's genes?! lol And where did GOd's loud voice come from?! did is voice ever boom and tell Eve not to eat?!

Next is the question why women want to look pretty/beautify themselves? I think a big part of it is that they appear attractive to men so that men would fall head over heels to them. mind you, not only women are obssessed with beauty but men as well! look at the late Michael Jackson who tried cosmetic surgery.

I think it's a rather narrow-minded, superficial, unfactual, demeaning and sexist view of the women population on the whole."

Don't ask me why I was super nice to say 'I agree with the part' when I don't agree with the whole article. Somehow I feel that slimming pills are past things now. What is very saddening is that girls become over-conscious of their body image and ended up becoming bulimic/anorexic which are very difficult to treat due to various psychological issues involved. I think the author of the article has a very dim view of women. He sees them as weak, stubborn, gullible and impatient people whose only activity is beautifying themselves. I LOLed at his last two sentences which said, 'Eve remaining life was like almost 1000 years, because Adam lived for 900 years and women naturally live longer than man' HAHA and the ridiculous punchline he thought he so tactfully put 'don't make the same mistake as Eve did'.

God is love

2011-02-01T03:26:00.007Z

It's quite amazing how God always try to bring us back to Him even though we have sinned against Him and hurt Him so much. His love is always everlasting, always unfailing, always unconditional and it comforts us in time of need.

1 Cor 13: 4-7 reminds us of how love is.

4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Try substituting with your name and you will realise how difficult it is to love. Janice is patient, Janice is kind. Janice does not envy, Janice does not boast...I failed at the first line ad LOL. But if you substitute it with God, God is patient, God is kind...God always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. It fits the character of God because God is love.

1 John 4:8 says it aptly, "Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love."

Whenever people fail or hurt us or do not deserve forgiveness, remember that God is love and that we have been called by God to love one another just as He has loved us (John 15:12).

We do not know God if we do not love.

2011-01-26T14:18:00.012Z

I saw these few Christian comic strips on fb and instantly fell in love with them. Love the way the expression were captured on these pics.

# 1

# 2

# 3

# 4

and my favourite (other than the one I posted previously):

I feel that I'm like the kid in the picture! hahaha! frustrated and tired with so many things yet not talking to God and only seeking him as the last resort. Sometimes we are so frustrated with problems that we forgot that God is just beside us, offering His hands to share in our burdens. Don't put God as our last resort but always seek Him first yeah!!

which comic strip do you like most?

forgiveness

2011-01-25T02:03:00.002Z

forgiveness that reaches out to the undeserving. just as Jesus forgave those who mocked him, humiliated him and rejected him.

(Ephesians 4:31-32) “Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.”

Happy New year!

2011-01-23T21:44:00.010Z

haha I know this is a super belated post as it's already 23 days post new year. I was reading my blog entry 2009 new year's and thought to myself, what did I do on new year ah and nearly couldn't recall. so before I forget, i better write it in this blog.

it was just like any other days I guess. New year's eve was on Friday, there was no cell group and we did not prepare a proper meal. We went to L&V house for thanksgiving and watched London fireworks on the telly. On New year day, we were rudely awakened by Steph who was annoyed because she missed her bus to London as her iphone alarm clock did not ring (others around the world were also affected lol). what a way to start new year!!

That evening, we went to L&V's house again for a steamboat and celebrated two church members' birthday! there was a game of mafia (in which everyone falls asleep and a killer wakes up and kill people).

Just a recap of 2010, it started off quite badly with lots of downs but thank God that looking back, I have not become weaker but stronger from all the struggles. Friendships were strengthened and spiritually I was more stable than the previous years. However, 2010 saw the leaving of many friends in Leeds and the breakdown of many relationships.

Last year, my specific goals were

1. serve in church

2. master the guitar

3. read 12 books

and I achieved no1 as i started playing keyboard for sunday worship in april last year and am now more involved in cell. Still got lots to improve on though because the confidence and the trust I have in God are still lacking. speaking of guitar, ironically, I told myself 2 years before that I would never play guitar but ended up liking it more than keyboard. I haven't yet mastered the guitar lol but thanks to my sifu, grahammchoo.blogspot.com and Esther who started the weekly guitar lesson in April (which unfortunately have to be discontinued because the sifu left :( ) ,I have started playing guitar for cell also! :D :D all glory to God

din manage to achieve no 3. don't think I even managed to read 5 books last year.

This year, my goals will be:

1. to learn to play by ear

2. to learn to sing!!

3. to maintain current weight (meaning no more losing weight :D)

4. read 6 books in a year (decided not to be too ambitious)

5. save a certain amount of money

Spiritually, I have made a few 'one-year deals' with God and pray that I will keep to the promise :D it will be a year when I learn to have full dependence and submission on God. good night!!

Past Christmases

2010-12-31T13:59:00.008Z

How I spent my Christmases in the UK for the past 5 years:

Christmas in Edinburgh 2006

Christmas in Buxton 2007

Christmas celebration in Leeds when Andrew came and on Christmas day itself, went to Kyle's 2008

Christmas fine dining at CF's and dinner with the Spenceley's 2009

Christmas 2010

how will Christmas 2011 be?

"follow me"

2010-11-26T09:30:00.005Z

i'm inclined to share with you my quiet time which I did on my way back home from Bradford. It was in the book of Matthew, chapter 9 where Jesus called Matthew to be one of his disciples and although it was short passage, it spoke to me.

Matthew 9:9
⁹ As Jesus went on from there, he saw a man named Matthew sitting at the tax collector’s booth. “Follow me,” he told him, and Matthew got up and followed him.

I wonder why of all people, did Jesus see a tax collector?

What caught Jesus' eyes?

What was Matthew doing? was he crying or waving at Jesus that caught Jesus' attention?

The bible is very quiet about this.

Jesus must have seen something that other people can't see.

Perhaps Matthew wasn't crying or waving at him.

Perhaps he was sitting at the booth counting coins, performing the daily duties of a tax collector. But deep within inside his heart, he feels that empty. He feels that there's something more to life than just collecting coins. He feels the pain and hurt from rejected by people.

He wonders if there is someone who could close the gap in his heart and perhaps at that very moment of the time his heart might be crying out, 'if there is a God, reveal yourself to me and I'm willing to let go of everything to follow you!!"

Jesus knows the condition of his heart and I think that's what caught Jesus' attention.

That was when Jesus approached him, "Follow me". In Matthew's mind, he must be so amazed and so surprised because someone heard his cry for help and it was God! Jesus came seeking for him!

and that's why he stood up, left everything he has and followed Jesus.

I would like to imagine Matthew feeling hopeless and meaningless about life and his spirit broken. Because in Psalms 51:17

The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.

By being broken, we can approach God humbly; not proud, not arrogant, not relying on our strength and not being selfish.

Supposedly if Matthew was at the top of his world, at the peak of his career and success, he wouldn't have left everything and follow Jesus. He would be thinking, 'why is this mad man asking me to follow Him. No way!!'

But Matthew was humble and broken when Jesus called him. Life has disappointed him, it has broken him down to the point where he can't pick himself up anymore.

God knows the condition of our heart even when we are trying to hide from everyone else.

I thank you God for seeking me when I was lost and hopeless. You picked me up when my life was broken and you called me. I did not respond instantly as Matthew did because I have doubts and did not have faith in you.

I realised I can't do things on my own strength and will but to fully depend on Yours. I have to let go of things that are dear to me because it's Your will and not mine to be fulfilled.

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my birthday!!

2010-11-02T02:42:00.004Z

Very happy and very touched.

Thank you all who came to surprise me. Thank you Van who organised everything (and the cake too). Thanks Sonia and Van who did the make up. Thank you to those who came for dinner at Red Chillies. Thank you Steph for the kuey tiaw and the paitesserie cake and the necklace. And thank you all for the handbag! I am kinda bad at expressing my emotions but I really like the bag!!!!! so soft and it smells like leather hahaha

I din dare to hope so much for fear of disappointment. But am really grateful and appreciative of all the efforts you guys made, especially for coming all the way, braving through the cold and rain to surprise me.

T.T

it's halloween!

2010-10-31T13:15:00.006Z

try spotting me

******

i hope I have scared you enough haha :P

A time for everything

2010-10-11T23:35:00.004+01:00

i cant believe it's time for me to apply for my foundation year job! Time really flies. Last week my group taught the third years examination skills and looking at them really reminded me of how I was when I was in their position. I remember doing things and performing certain steps in the examination bit very slowly for fear of making a mistake. And that was what I saw in the third year student when she was checking the visual field of her group mate.

third year was mainly to get things signed off in our log book. once it's done, it's done. no more repeating

Fourth year was a turning point. A time when we blossomed and grow.

fifth year is when we want to get as much experience as we can and when doing something once isn't enough.

We are the most senior person in med school now. first year medics think we are gods. But when we enter the working world, we are the most junior ones.

can you imagine us becoming doctors??

My heart echo the words from Ecclesiastes ( i have to refer a few times to get the spelling right lolz) chapter 3 on a time for everything. This is also specially dedicated to a friend who is going through a very hard and depressing time right now. It hurts to see someone suffering in pain and yet being unable to do something. The only way out is death but parting can be difficult because you will miss him/her terribly when he/she leaves. so there you go my friend, may God continue to be with you and your family during this time.

A Time for Everything

¹ There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:

² a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,

³ a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,

⁴ a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,

⁵ a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

⁶ a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,

⁷ a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,

⁸ a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

PARIS!

2010-10-05T21:35:00.004+01:00

I'm so excited i can't contain this excitement anymore.

I have just booked a trip to Paris in December!!! This time i'm not flying but using eurostar which i have heard much about in sec school. i hv tried the ferry(terrible experience) and plane across europe and now it's train. Probably cruise would be next :)

the feeling is like the time in first year when I booked flights to Holland. It's been nearly 4 years since I ever made a holiday trip to Europe.

Although it's only 4 nights and 3 days, this is definitely something to look forward to especially after 3 intensive placements. can't wait!!

my room

2010-10-05T00:00:00.008+01:00

I have finally left my old house which I have inhabited for 4 years. The room i'm living now is slightly cheaper and smaller than the previous one but overall, I'm very pleased with my new room because,

1. it's less crowded (one person less), hence more space!

2. it gives a more homely feel

3. the cupboard and table the landlord provide us are huge!

the tables are now near the heater so it's less cold when studying! note the double glazed window!! hopefully winter will be more bearable this year. The bed sits just nicely at the corner

bigger floor space for Esther to hula hoop lolz and play board game/cards ad. There's even space for the guitar!! *gasp* hahaha. But note the small entrance into the space (in the picture on the right) which is limited by the edge of the bed and a shoe rack

My table!! as you probably might have forgotten how my table in my previous room look like, let me refresh your memory again:

the table with no place to put my laptop and books but i managed to get through 4 years of med school with it.

My new table:

I know Esther will be like yaya, you have told us so many times already :P but I'm super duper pleased & happyx1000 with my table! there's even enough space to put my bookchair, my books, my bears, my stationery, laptop and even write on the table without having to move anything away! :):):):):)

♥♥♥♥♥♥

it's my 5th yr in med school already

2010-09-22T16:20:00.005+01:00

hello!

this blog is officially declared dead and am ready to sign a death and cremation form.

wa so super lame -.-"

Anyway, i have now started fifth year and have just started placements. It's interesting to see myself growing each year and being able to tackle things which I thought I would not be able to.

I remember i used to be so scared at taking blood pressure because I fear that by not being accurate it would cost someone's life. lolz. But now it's no more the blood pressure, thank goodness. But i guess it's more on being able to confidently say and elicit signs in patients.

Hopefully with more practice and exposure, I will be more confident.

I cant believe in 9 months time i would be graduating to be a doctor. Again, if all goes well :)

PS: I will be going off facebook for a while until further notice haha. I think I have been spending a lot of time on it until it affects my quality of life - not going out to enjoy the fresh air, always hiding in my room etc

4th year

2010-07-05T05:34:00.003+01:00

I'm finally on my way back home, am in Dubai now waiting for my connecting flight to KL and in 10 hours I will be back!

I feel that everything that is happening now is surreal and yet it's true. I saw the same old pharm shop in Dubai which reminded me that I was here last year at around this time. The same old shop but an older Janice. This year has been a difficult year for me and yet it happened very quickly. Looking back, I am amazed at how I managed to pull through all the ups and downs and how much I have learned and gained throughout this whole year.

As promised before I would write more about my OSCE lol. It's weird that after exam, I tend to blog less but I guess it's like how some people always clean their room before exam and not doing it after.

I thank everyone from the bottom of my heart for the prayers during my exams. God is marvelous and He is great! Remember that I asked to be prayed for calm, peace and clarity of the mind during the OSCE? The first time ever (well actually it's only my 2nd OSCE lol), I did not panic at all during the exam, I was as cool as a cucumber and my mind was clear and not fuzzy and confused.

God was really at work and I could feel His peace. However, I lost His peace for a while after the OSCE on the first day as my mind ruminate the things that happened and how angry at myself for not saying the things which I should say.

I had trouble sleeping that night as my mind kept replaying scenes of the OSCE and things that I should have said. It took me gazillions toss and turns on the bed before I finally fell asleep. But I woke up 3 hours later at 4.30am unable to sleep.

My mind was tired and I felt that I could not continue the 2nd day anymore. Suddenly I felt that I was going to lose it. After working and practising so hard for the OSCE, I suddenly felt that I was about to breakdown 4 hours before the 2nd part of the OSCE.

My mind began to pray and pray asking God for His peace and seeking His strength to sustain me for the next exam. I think I finally understood what the phrase steph put on her msn, 'worry is something you permit, peace is something you pursue'. Finally I fell asleep 2 hours later. I woke up feeling refreshed and confident and I felt ready to fight on. Thank God!!

Many things could happen but God was watching over me throughout these.

I feel sorry for those who didn't make it. I cant imagine having to revise the whole set of notes and talking to my imaginary friend again and again during the holidays. Somehow passing OSCE is not proportional to the amount of practice in my opinion esp for year 4 exams. Maybe it's different in other uni, but I know for Leeds, it's not.

May God continue to be with them and give them strength to carry on.

2010-06-30T16:29:00.001+01:00

Now I can introduce myself as a final year medical student ad because I PASSED!!!!!

will blog more about this when I hv time. Thanks for your prayers everyone!

2010-06-17T20:18:00.002+01:00

the long hours of talking to myself and many months of practising for the OSCE still are not enough to prepare us for the real one.

pray that things will be fine

2 down 2 more to go

2010-06-16T01:30:00.008+01:00

my mental state examination (as of 15/6/10):

appearance:
young girl with greasy messy hair and smelly clothes which looked as if they have not been changed for a week. Posture was rigid and tense with restless legs.
behaviour:
appeared to be tired and restless. But was agitated when mentioned the word OSCE. eye contact was difficult to maintain as eyes were buried in piles of books and notes.

speech:
speech was spontaneous and coherent with appropriate responses however was slightly fast in rate, tone and volume.

mood:
subjectively she described her mood as "not too bad"
objectively her mood was euthymic.

thought content:
no evidence of obsessive thoughts, delusions or phobias.
however she expressed feelings of helplessness and anxieties in the upcoming OSCE in the next two days. no suicidal ideation was elicited.

thought form:
she complained of episodes in which her thoughts have been sucked out by a vacuum leaving her mind empty.

Perception:
she denied any visual, auditory or tactile hallucinations.
However, she was seen (a few episodes) to be talking loudly to an invisible person and seemed to be asking and answering questions of the invisible person. One example was she was seen talking about antidepressants treatment to an unseen person.

cognition:
she was orientated in time place and person. Good concentration and attention. Memory was intact.

insight:
She has poor insight. Did not think she was unwell and therefore unwilling to accept treatment.

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2 papers down another 2 more to go!!!

What is left is the OSCE. I'm starting to have palpitations and sweaty hands at the thought of the OSCE.

what if I get tongue-tied during exam? or what if I don't know how to answer the questions the patient ask? what if my mind goes blank during exam? I had an episode of how my mind can go blank during a practise osce last week and it was so scary. It's as if my thoughts were sucked out by a vacuum leaving my mind empty.

Please pray for calmness, peace and confidence for the OSCE. Also for clarity of mind and God's wisdom to ask the right questions and answer appropriately. thank you all who are praying for me!

freedom is near

2010-06-13T16:08:00.009+01:00

daily requirements:
h20 - 30-40mmol/kg
Na - 1-2mmol/kg
K - 1 mmol/kg
Cl- - 1.5mmol/kg
phosphate - 0.2-0.5mmol/kg

0.9% saline contains 154mmol/L Na+, no K+, 154 mmol/L Cl-
5% dextrose does not contain Na, K, Cl
dexSaline - 30mmol/L Na+, 30mmol/L Cl-, no K+

chancroid - gram -ve bacteria Haemophilus decreyi
salphingoctomy - removal of ectopic but preserving tube
salphingEctomy - removal of ectopic AND tube
abdo circumference --> accurate predictor for IUGR

normal range:
Na: 135-145
K: 3.5-5
Cr 70-150umol/L
Ca2+ 2.12-2.65 mmol/L
PaCo2: 4.7-6
T4: 8-22pmol/L
TSH: 0.35-5.5mlU/L
MCV: 80-100fL

ask me these next week, I probably won't be able to answer half of these without referring because my exams will be OVERRRR!!!

Freedom is near. I can smell it.

funding

2010-06-05T23:21:00.000+01:00

I received a total of £560 for my elective funding!!

Wasn't really happy about it at first because 1. it was not what I expected as according to the seniors, they have received much more than this (blame on the economy downturn) 2. my friend managed to receive one funding of £800 and another friend received £250 for just an elective report whereas I am doing a blardy elective project which involves interviewing mothers and writing my findings in the report which i foresee wouldn't be easy! grrr

In an attempt to console myself, £560 isn't that bad because it's a person's monthly salary back home. I should also be grateful of what I got and I shouldn't compare myself with others and no use whining or moaning about why I din apply to this and that when the deadline is over.

Although £560 only covers part of my airticket but it's still better than nothing! So thank God for that! :D

exams

2010-06-03T23:50:00.002+01:00

my exam is from 14th to 18th June. Please keep me in your prayers!!!

a week in the delivery suite

2010-06-03T10:37:00.004+01:00

I feel helpless when I see women in labour pain and not being able to do anything to ease their pain because it's something they have to go through.

I saw a forseps delivery and it was the scariest thing I ever saw lol. The obs doctor was literally pulling the baby head by force. And what I meant by literally is he got into the 'tug-of-war' stance and used all the strength that he has to pull the baby head out with the woman screaming her lungs out. it was so scarrrrryyyy.

But the minute the baby was born, all the screaming stopped and the mum is smiling again. weeing is gonna be painful for her for the next few days

our male counterparts are so lucky to not to go through childbirth pain. Like what one of the mums said to her husband, 'you will never understand how painful it is'.

not fair! :P

iphone!!!!

2010-05-24T14:20:00.007+01:00

Guess what?!!

I have got an iphone!!!

Every 4th year med student received an email from the university last week which said,

"As part of the revision of the MBChB 2010 curriculum, the School of Medicine will introduce a mobile learning programme for Year 4 and Year 5 MBChB students. The purpose of the mobile learning solution is to provide support to you during your placements and rotations within the NHS and other practice environments.

The provision of the mobile learning is funded partly by HEFCE (Higher Education Funding Council for England), the Strategic Health Authority and School of Medicine funding. The use of mobile learning resources is an integral part of your curriculum and is a tool which will support your learning, especially during practice placements.

You will receive an Apple iPhone 3GS 16Gb. This will be your personal mobile learning device for the rest of your Year 4 and Year 5 MBChB course. It will have a Mobile Broadband connection with unlimited data usage (with a fair limit policy). This is not chargeable for UK use but is chargeable for roaming use (outside the UK)"

So cool right!!! But considering the amount we pay for the school fees, this iphone is only like 0.1% of it. lol

Back!

2010-05-22T22:06:00.010+01:00

Hi guys!

I'm back from Vienna! I'm totallly knackered with a slight headache probably due to dehydration. But I hope with a good rest tonight, I will be able to resume to my revision. I was so worried that the volcanic ash would cause cancellations in flights but thank God nothing happened and we went and arrived back safely!

The presentation went quite well. One of tutors reminded us many times to introduce ourselves as medical students so that the expectations on us were not high. But still, we were still shot with questions and my groupmate tactfully answered them!

That's me with my groupmates, Adam and Candice . Steph is the one taking the pic. Look at our excited faces!! We have finally made it there

now with Steph

The posh hotel where the conference was held! We had to pay 70 euros just for one day

This year marks the 50th year that MH was first described in 1960 by a doc in Aussie.

We sat and listened to all the talks in the morning for our presentation at 4pm

One of our supervisor in Leeds for this presentation who is the chair of the afternoon session. Apparently he's one of the 'big cheese' as my groupmates call it which I think means he has control and power over the whole conference. Knowing that we were unable to handle the questions due to our inexperience, he quickly cut off everyone's questions by telling everyone that time was running out and the next group should present.

My SSC tutor! He was promoted to being a consultant a few months ago.

The whole group from Leeds.

At the end of the conference, many people came up to our group to congratulate us on our good work. My tutor told us that there haven't been any students coming to their annual conference for some time already.

I guess this would be the highlight of my academic years in leeds. God has indeed blessed me with so many opportunities which I never thought I could have. I'm sure when I graduate I would have a lot of opportunities to attend conferences overseas, but for a medical student to be given such chance is something I would never dream of.

PS: I received an email from the uni that they have approved my Student Conference Fund award of £100. It cannot cover my full cost but it's still something. Thank God for that too!

Vienna

2010-05-06T21:36:00.004+01:00

As promised, I said I would update about this upcoming Vienna trip which is gonna happen in 2 weeks' from now.

I was fortunate to have been involved in an audit for my year-long SSC project which evaluated the use of drugs in MH (Malignant Hyperthermia)reaction in the past 2 decades. As the condition is very rare, there is only one unit in the whole of UK which is based in Leeds. My tutor told the group that he was pleased with our work and suggested that we should present our findings in the annual meeting in Vienna when all MH units from all around Europe come together to meet.

It is a good opportunity, but the downside is that all expenses have to be from our pocket :(

Exams are less than 5 weeks away and some time off abroad is not very good for my revision.

Finger-crossed + toe-crossed that i can catch up with revision.

2010-05-04T20:26:00.004+01:00

Exams are coming.

Anyone wana scream with me?

ARRRRRRRGGHHHHHHH!!

Post SSC celebration

2010-04-24T18:29:00.005+01:00

We came up with an impromptu plan to eat nasi lemak and Bette, one of our malay friends, agreed to cook for us provided we buy her the ingredients.

it was a day filled with good food, friends and weather!

2010-04-24T11:37:00.005+01:00

You know in London, horses are such a common sight...

until they have traffic lights specifically for horse riders to cross

2010-04-22T03:40:00.002+01:00

phew *wipes sweat of brow*

i hv finally finished my reflection and essay.

it's now time to focus on studies

2010-04-20T19:09:00.002+01:00

A possible trip to Vienna in 4 weeks' time.

which necessitates a trip down to London to renew my passport.

will write more about it once it's confirmed

An incident I will never forget

2010-04-19T23:44:00.015+01:00

I was writing my essay nice and comfortable in my room.

Suddenly I heard this loud sound of someone banging against the kitchen door. It was so great I felt as if the whole house shook. Followed by someone tugging forcefully at the door handle several times.

Esther and steph who were in the kitchen at that time said they were shouting, "POLICE!! POLICE" with deafening sounds of banging of the kitchen door.

And then the next thing I heard was that the sound of the door banging has shifted to the front door. I could feel the door resisting their bangs but was on the verge of breaking down.

Then suddenly, 'PRAAAANNNNGGGGG' one of the windows was smashed.

Very soon, I heard quick, anxious footsteps stumbling up the stairs and two extremely nervous and scared-faced people appeared in front of the bedroom door.

'QUICK QUICK, CALL THE POLICE, LOCK THE DOOR!! LOCK THE DOOR!!'

In the midst of chaos and confusion, Steph struggled to lock the room door, I fumbled to look for my phone but I couldn't find it. Esther finally found it and dialed 999 for the police.

Thank God no one was injured in this incident.

My housemate who was staying in the 2nd floor upstairs saw a gang of 6 hooligans with hoodies over their faces roaming around the backyard.

The kitchen window was smashed by a brick at a great force because not only the window was smashed but the bottom bit of the cupboard came off, the wall was scratched and the stove was dented as well. That must have been one hell of strength to cause such impact. Thank God Steph and Esther left the kitchen or else the brick might have hit them and it was the kitchen window that was smashed and not the living room window because Lynda happened to be at the living room window dozing off.

Damage done:
the smashed kitchen window

the cupboard

the brick (part of it chipped off when it was thrown in)

pieces of glasses everywhere

The police came within 30 min and reassured us that it was highly unlikely for the hooligans to come back again. They spoke to the house agent on behalf of us to request for the repair of the kitchen window to be done urgently tonight but up till now at 12.13am, no one has come to repair the window yet.

we were shaking and trembling uncontrollably and my legs were like jelly after the incident. It was so scary lor! I seriously really thought they were carrying weapons and were going to attack us! What an experience!

ps: more details of the incident can be found on steph's facebook

update: a repair man replaced the window with a plywood and someone would come a few days later to fix it.

sien lo

2010-04-18T23:31:00.005+01:00

Everytime when I'm under stress or when I'm in the centre of attention, my face will become flushed and spots of rashes start appearing on my neck.

My housemate who always happens to be in the same group as me whenever I present or take a history said, "我每次坐在那边只是在看你像变色龙变色" (I always see you change colour like a chameleon).

-.-"""

Note to self: Seems like I have to wear a turtle neck blouse during my OSCE because no doubt the rashes would be full blown.

2010-04-18T00:31:00.003+01:00

Imagine being stranded in a foreign country not being able to leave because of some volcanic ash covering the sky!

Living in the Europe, it's quite interesting to see many facebook statuses about the volcanic ash. I've been very ignorant about world news lately but facebook has prompted me to read up some news about the volcanic ash lol because of some fb statuses:

"..."US pop star Whitney Houston was forced to take a ferry from the UK to Ireland for her upcoming tour""

"Stuck in Paris, Damn you Volcano, could be worse..."

"DAMN YOU ICELANDIC VOLCANO"

"Oh no......third day of flight chaos. When will it end???"

2010-04-17T20:55:00.005+01:00

I am worried.

Because after spending so much time and effort on my elective project to obtain funding I might miss the deadline for it just because I haven't got the approval of the hospital director on time.

the deadline is end of this month which is not far off :(

Give me peace O Lord.

2010-04-17T00:02:00.003+01:00

purely miniscule and random:

Hey I'm still 22 why Blogger says I'm 23

hmph

I'm not that old yet :P

table

2010-04-14T23:42:00.005+01:00

The table has got an extension now heheh!

I can make do with a small table

I have passed 3 years of med school with it

So I can now for 4th year

♥

nice read

2010-04-14T15:16:00.014+01:00

Pretty long (and it's in chinese which makes it difficult) but it's worth the read.

Choosing the right partner (from a Christianity point of view).

note: I read up to part 4 and decided to give my eyes a rest. Humans beings are imperfect and it's impossible to find the perfect flawless guy. But do read it as a guide to improve yourself for a better relationship with your future/current partner/spouse♥

2010-04-11T08:57:00.003+01:00

♥

I ask God to fill my emptiness and he gave me people to talk to

not too long after that I received a text to meet up for coffee

someone asked me how was things going

I went out for supper after Friday cell and had a good fellowship

I called my high school bestie who was patient listening to me as I ramble on and I used up all my free minutes!

NEEC was great but the highlight was the night talk with the girls

Thank You Lord!

♥

2010-04-09T23:34:00.009+01:00

♥ Esther you asked me how did I insert the ♥♥ thingy in the blog?

Nahhhh...

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Hahaha. I copied these little hearts from fb and pasted it on here :P

This week has been so busy and I foresee a busy weekend! my 7-day easter hols came and went really fast and I'm now left with 8 weeks to exams *clutches table* *hyperventilate*

白兔加油! 加油! self motivation lol. someone else motivate me lah! can anot? heheh :P

the magic of make-up!

2010-04-09T16:31:00.002+01:00

wa geng!

If only i have the skills to make my small eyes look big like theirs lol! hahaha

on a road to recovery

2010-04-09T04:08:00.003+01:00

I read about Matthew 5:13-16 from the NEEC booklet morning devotions. Lol. I don't have any daily devotions to read. Anyone got any good online daily devotionals to recommend? :)

Anyway, today's bible verses were, 'You are the salt of the earth, but if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by man.

You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden, neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your father in heaven."

Somehow when I was reading the bible verses and the complementary texts that followed, I felt that God suddenly impressed upon me 3 specific incidents that happened in the past that needed to be dealt with. And it was the issue of being labeled 'stupid'. I remember someone who was very puzzled at why do I get so depressed when I am being called stupid. I wanted to tell the person perhaps it reminded me of past experiences which I had but I felt that even by telling it would bring 'great flow of tears' :(.

***

So the three things were:

1. I was called the st*pid repeatedly because I lost one month's worth of piano lesson money

2. during a camp sometime in sec school, I wore sandals to a jungle hiking trip instead of shoes because I did not have any sports shoes that time and I felt embarrassed wearing school shoes (lol). In the end I ended up slipping and falling a lot which caused a lot of frustration among my group members because our group were far behind the other groups. Initially they were encouraging but they got so exasperate and ended up saying, 'aiyo, why you so st*pid one' throughout the whole journey. haih.

3. I thought I could wait for someone under the sun because I thought the person would be quite fast and I didn't know how to lock the bike so I got a call from the person asking why I was so stupid to wait under the sun and he/she said, '为什么你这么笨的?'

***

I feel that God is teaching me to learn to let go of past hurts and wounds so that I would not be plagued by these and also not use it as an excuse to self-pity.

By learning today's passage and reflecting on the 3 incidents God reminded me about, God is telling me to let go of these past hurts and wounds. Before I empower and equip myself to shine for God, the biggest obstacle I would have to overcome is myself. How can I shine for God if I continue to have unhealed wounds in my heart? How can I be a light unto others if I do not see myself as how God sees me? How can I be the salt and light if I do not believe in the one who give us strength when we are weak?

God, help me.

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" - Philippians 4:1

PS: perhaps a few years down the road when I read back this entry, i would be thinking hmmm...these are nothing to me now! By this I would know I have been set free :). Have a good day ahead and God bless.

2010-04-07T19:11:00.007+01:00

I went to Wales for NEEC (North England Easter Conference) which was a 4-day event.

But I only went for 2 days :(

I was the official photographer though ♥♥

It was tiring as it means I have to be there for all programmes and also a challenge to my meagre photographer skills in terms of photographing events.

But it is a great joy to serve God using the talents (??) and photography gadgets he has blessed me with

all Leeds people who came

God bless ya:)

To let go...

2010-04-04T10:37:00.006+01:00

I believe everyone is struggling with some issues in their life. Past mistakes take hold of them and stop them from moving forward; the hurts and pain from broken relationships; the need to control other people either consciously or unconsciously because we care for them; perhaps it's some fears that you have - fear of failing, fear of letting God down, fear of losing control, fear of not meeting expectations.

In the bible God says, "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus." (Phillipians 4:6-7).

and in 1Peter 5:7, it's written, "Cast all your anxieties on Him for He cares for you".

Are you struggling with something right now? If you are, learn to let go and entrust God to help you with that.

The following excerpt is taken from the overcoming fears series by UCB which I find meaningful ♥:

To let go...

doesn't mean you stop caring, it just means you can't do it for them
is not to cut them off, but to realise you can't control them
is not to enable, but to allow them to learn from their consequences
is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in your hands and it never was!
is not to try to change or blame somebody else but to make the most of yourself
is not just to care for but to care about
is not to fix but to be supportive
is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes but to allow others to affect their own destinies
is not to be protective but to permit them to face reality
is not to deny but to accept
is not to nag, scold or argue but to search out your own shortcomings and work on them
is not to adjust everything to your desires but to take each day as it comes and cherist yourself in it
is not to criticise or regulate others but to try to become what you dream you can be
is not to regret the past but to grow and to live in the present

is to fear less...trust God...and love more!

Dear God, there are many fears within me, so many past mistakes that I blame myself for and so much things I want to take control of but I realise that I can't. You understand the struggles that I have in letting go. Lord today I ask that You help me with that. Help me focus on the negative things in my life that hold me back and teach me to turn them to positives. Help me be confident and see myself as how you see me - your child of God, specially and wonderfully made. Amen.

2010-04-03T01:58:00.002+01:00

I think I could see the light at the end of this tunnel I'm walking in. Hope it's real this time :)

ok nite!

the crucifixion

2010-04-02T11:59:00.002+01:00

'What is crucifixion? A medical doctor provides a physical description:

As he slowly sags down...on the nails in the wrists, excruciating pain shoots along the fingers and up the arms to explode in the brain; the nails in the wrists are putting pressure on the median nerves. As he pushes himself upward to avoid stretching torment, he places the full weight on the nail through his feet. Again he feels the agony of the nail tearing through the nerves between the bones of the feet. As the arms fatigue, cramps sweep through the muscles, knotting them in deep, relentless, throbbing pain. With these cramps comes the inability to push himself upward to breathe. Air can be drawn into the lungs but not exhaled. He fights to raise himself in order to get even one small breath...hours of this limitless pain, cycles of twisting, joint-rending cramps, intermittent partial asphyxiation, searing pain as tissue is torn from his lacerated back as he moves up and down against the rough timber. Then another agony begins: a deep, crushing pain in the chest as the pericardium slowly fills with serum and begins to compress the heart. It is now almost over; the loss of tissue fluids reaches a critical level; the compressed heart is struggling to pump heavy, thick, sluggish blood into the tissues; the tortured lungs are making a frantic effort to gasp in small gulps of air. He can feel the chill of death creeping through his tissues...finally he can allow his body to die.'

Thank You for dying on the cross dear Lord ♥

Things that need to be done

2010-04-02T10:42:00.012+01:00

♥ ♥ ♥

1. ~~book airtickets to go home!!~~ (finally booked! such a relief!)

2. sort out electives! (another headache)

3. elective project (half done!)

4. edit lit review

5. reflective log

6. finish revising psych and gp (3/4 done!)

7. finish revising paeds!

8. finish revising c4

2010-04-01T21:51:00.006+01:00

Hey guise!

I'm back :)

*flips and somersaults*

I din go away for that long din I?

snowed again!

2010-02-21T12:23:00.005Z

IT SNOWED!!!

apparently it snowed quite heavily last night because the snow was a few inches thick when I woke up this morning.

Oh Spring, when are you coming?

keyboard

2010-02-21T12:02:00.000Z

Playing keyboard for Sunday worship for the first time in Leeds.

Practice yesterday was really bad. The worship leader seemed very exasperate but yet was very patient with me. So Steph taught me a few variations and hope that it will turn out well today.

2010-02-06T14:50:00.002Z

I feel angry and bitter.

Dear God, teach me to be grateful, to still give thanks in all circumstances, give me the peace to accept things that I cannot change and the wisdom to discern.

2010-01-13T20:35:00.001Z

fat already

sob sob

of sheepskin boots, bedroom slippers and chilblains

2010-01-12T20:54:00.011Z

I have this problem ever since last year during the cold winter -my toes would become very red and swollen whenever the temperature drops.

It's called chilblains as Esther told me.

The practical way to prevent it is to keep warm as much as possible.

So...I bought

1. Sheepskin boots

Yay, I finally received my sheepskin boots today! Hdhl has got quite an efficient service in texting me the approximate delivery of me boots and it arrived quite on time. Fortunately Lynda was at home to get them (TQ!)

I used to hate the looks of these boots especially when people wear them with skinny fit jeans. But people say, 'never say never' and I started to notice these boots sometime last year and realise, hey they are actually quite nice' and began to go crazy over them. Since I would be staying in UK for the next few years so why not invest in one good boots which will keep me warm during the winter.

The story of how this pair of boots came about was quite long. I have been doing some research online on sheepskin boots and my initial target was ugg. But unfortunately they came with a hefty price and there were so many fakes online. So to play safe, I decided to settle with emu boots instead.

However, lolz, I realised that I have missed the most recent sales when the boots were actually sold for 38pounds! The cheapest offer I could get online was 55pounds :(

Then finally I came across this website which gave really good comparison on footwear sold by online retailers. I saw this pair of boots by Just Sheepskin which was sold for only 60pounds (reduced from 95) by Office! And they had my size ! After what seems like a thousand zillion years, I finally placed my order.

However, the price of the boots dropped a few days later to 50 pounds. Quite angry and disappointed because I felt cheated, I wrote them an email telling them that I wanted to cancel my order although I should have done that within 24 hours of ordering. They wrote to me back a week later telling me that (fortunately) there wasn't any stock available for the size 5 I wanted. I checked office website again and this time the boots was reduced to 35pounds! 35 from 95pounds! They had a size 6 available so I bought it although it was slightly bigger.

I know it might sound strange to some of you but I told God that if it is His will to let me have the boots then please let me have them. If not it's ok if I don't get them.

And I got the order invoice the very next day! Yipeeee!!! thank God!

Behold my comfy and warm boots...!!!

not ugg but me loveeeessss.

2. Hello Kitty bedroom slippers!

I like the fluffiness of it and the cuddly feeling as I put them on my feet. So nice and warm! Got them off Debenhams at a 70% discount which I thought was really worth the money.

Make me feel young and girly again lolz

snowww!!

2010-01-06T17:57:00.004Z

It snowed again last night after Esther and I shoveled the snow!

Tonight the weather is set to plunge to a -5c. Brrrr...

It was a very beautiful sight when I walked down the street outside my house. Everywhere was covered with snow, even houses rooftops too!(They look like the houses in Restaurant City during their winter 'festive' season lolz). Parkinson building looked so white when seen from afar. It was so so pretty! How marvelous and great God is to create something so pure and white :)

However, the trouble snow brings is nearly as bad as Msia. Many car breakdowns have been reported. Rail services were suspended, schools were closed and flights were delayed. It's a torture to defrost the car in the cold when one is rushing to work. Thank God that the shuttle bus to st James was still running despite the bad weather condition.

The ones perhaps who are the happiest during this time are "the school children who were told not to go in" and not forgetting AA who has received more business than usual due to breakdowns!

snacks

2010-01-05T18:09:00.006Z

I went to Sainsbury today intending to buy a loaf of bread but came back with a shopping bag of snacks. But they r super yummy!! Kettle chips, the 'high-class' crisps as some people describe it, is my newly added favourite snack. Ready salted is the best flavour because I love plain crisps as opposed to the BBQ flavour, cheese & onion flavour or whatever flavour u can think of.

I'm starting to get scared of myself actually. Not at the fact that I buy snacks, but the way I scrutinize the food label whenever I buy snacks. It's not the price which bothers me but the calorie content or the fat content. I could remember the calorie content for almost each food item I have by heart - one piece of choc Mcvities is 84kcal, one piece of choc coated hobnobs is 93kcal and one piece of M&S nougat is 60kcal.

When I buy pork minced meat, I compare the calorie content in both morrisons and Sainsbury and concluded that I could get morrisons minced pork for the same price but with much lower fat content. I purposely walk that extra distance instead of using the free city bus to burn off as much energy as I can. I avoid eating Flames/mcdonald because I know these are fatty foods. My mind automatically tells me that one Big Mac is 500+kcal and one medium chips is 300+kcal which total to almost half of my GDA.

There are fears within me that I worry I would succumb to but for now I can safety say that I still love my food. How can I resist the temptations of not eating the food my sisters cook/bake? hehe...so no worries :). True beauty is beyond the outward appearance.

okie dokies! Esther said to go out and shovel the snow. Yes it has snowed again! about 4 inches thick this time. This is the first time i hv seen such heavy snow in Leeds! ciaoz

Happy New Year!

2010-01-02T04:18:00.002Z

I guess many Happy New Year posts are up now so I'd better write one quick before it's too late to post it.

This year New Year was slightly different from previous years. We used to have some 'watch night' thingy at one of the church leaders' house but he is not in Leeds now so we couldn't have it.

It was very quiet this New Year eve. And very laidback indeed. I remember my sisters and I were rushing with some 'specialty' dishes last year but this year we had a simple meal at home. Just the three of us.

The day (or night rather) started late with us waking up at 4.30pm (we have become nocturnal now :P) and just lazing around surfing the net/watching jdrama.

But we eventually pulled ourselves to cook in the freezing cold kitchen where we could actually breathe vapours out from the mouth. A humongous plate of baked rice (with goat cheese gratings, wanted to get rid of the goat cheese before it spoils), steamed chicken, stir-fry cucumber and broccoli, and a couple of leftovers from the night before were our New Year eve dishes.

It's good though because I think we needed a break from big dinners which we had for 5 consecutive nights.

**no pics available**

then I cleaned my table and re-arranged the things in my drawer until they looked pretty neat. for now.

I thought the night would end early with us going to bed finally but sometime through the night we heard the doorbell ring.

We thought it was someone playing a prank or sth but it turned out to be YK and a few others who just came back from the countdown in Millenium square. They asked whether we wanted to go over to their house to chill so we reluctantly agreed.

Ended up playing card game called heart attack with each of us getting pretty red hands after that and chit-chatting until 9.30am in the morning!!!!

-.-"

I guess my plan to adjust my sleeping time failed miserably again. So that's how I spent my New Year eve. A 'good' start to the new year. heh. But at least I have got a clean table to study on now :)

hibernating

2009-12-27T21:51:00.004Z

I think it's the weather coz I feel like sleeping everyday >.<

gear up for winter!

2009-12-25T18:20:00.004Z

essentials needed to keep warm during winter:

1. scarf - check

2. thick coat - check

3. beanie/ear muff - check

4. sheepskin boots - I wana get one! waterproof shoes aren't enough. My toes still become numb

5. gloves - check.

Blessed Christmas!

2009-12-24T03:02:00.003Z

Dear all, the Ting sisters would like to wish you a happy and blessed Christmas. May you be reminded of the true purpose of Christmas and may God fill you with joy continually. God bless.

PS: it's been snowing for the past few days! Hopefully we will get a white Christmas this year!!!

fattening up

2009-12-23T01:15:00.006Z

I thank God for the dinners which I have attended over the past few weeks. There will be more dinners this week as Christmas is round the corner. I have Christmas eve, Christmas day and boxing day evening booked for potluck! A blessing to have people to celebrate Christmas with but at the same time I have to watch my weight.

My sisters, CF and I had a go at fine dining. It was the first ever fine dining experience for me and the food were brilliant! great team effort in making this fine dining a success!

the menu

the food!

ate until we burst. We bought two legs of lamb which were on half price sale. We couldn't finish the lamb that night and took it home. It lasted for another 3 meals! Leg of lamb is seriously good; it has not much fat and the meat is so tender! Am thinking of buying one leg and saving it for daddy when he comes up in June hahaha. Daddy will give the verdict on whether it's good or not. 1000000 times better than the ribs of lamb we eat in Miri.

Early Christmas presents. See the happy faces

***

I baked chocolate cupcakes and brownies last week! They tasted surprisingly good but I wouldn't dare to think of the calories content. I know the chocolate brownies has got 325gm of sugar and 150gm of dark choc inside *shudders*. I know it's fattening but I love anyhting that has chocolate inside! the more chocolate-y the better!!

Oh I had a go at making mian pok but i think it didn't turn out like the one in town. I supposed it's because I din use lard (real oil from the fat of the pig) but then again it will be very unhealthy if I use it. Hmmm...

I will end with two pic of 'diners club' photos. If you notice, both pics were not taken in our house! hehehe. Esther made a point when she said it feels weird when we go to people house to eat instead of us staying put in our house and waiting for people to come. It's good coz we dun hv to worry too much about disturbing our housemates and eating at different friends' house makes dinners more interesting and exciting! However, to attend dinners at others' house will need an extra effort from myself to battle the cold weather outside.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year everyone!

things to remember as a Christian:

2009-12-01T03:49:00.005Z

對基督徒非常有幫助的30條建議

1.下次如果觉得自己了不起时，试试行在水上。
2.当魔鬼提起你的过去时，请提醒牠的未来。
3.你不是幸运，是蒙福。
4.若想要真正活着，得先彻底死去。
5.机会也许只敲一次门，但试探却总是在按门铃。
6.我们常在强壮时，忘了神。
7.那些只在星期天呼唤"天父"的人，在一星期馀下的日子活得像孤儿。
8.不要以自我为中心，要以基督为中心。
9.没有基督，没有平安；认识基督，得到平安。（No Christ, no peace；know Christ, know peace）
10.为什麽我们不常向朋友提起神？因为我们不常向神提起我们的朋友。
11.当把你的一切献给基督，因为祂把祂的一切都给了你。
12.你现在所追求的，值得基督为它死吗？
13.使你向神靠近的人，是你真正的朋友。
14.神爱我们，不是因为我们是怎样一个人，而是因为祂是怎样一位神。
15.神的应许像夜空裡的星星。夜越深，星星的光芒越亮。
16.没有基督的生命，是无望的尽头。有基督的生命，是无尽的盼望。
17.我虽不知道未来掌管着什麽，但我知道谁掌管着未来。
18.把你的重担交给主，让它留在主那裡。
19.不要畏惧明天，因为上帝已在那裡。
20.当你除了神，一无所有时，你将知道神就是你全部的需要。
21.放手交给上帝，别再向神讲述你的风暴有多大，当向风暴讲述你的神有多大。
22.能够满足人心的，是造人心的那一位。
23.请常常保持着你心裡的光，因为你不知道，谁会藉着这光走出黑暗。
24.当我们只顾工作的时候，我们独自工作；当我们祈祷的时候，神工作。
25.神无所不在，所以我们可以随处祷告。
26.一个没有需要的人永远见不到神蹟。
27.敬拜提醒我们生命的价值，但世界却使我们忘记它。
28.步履艰难的时候，别一味的祷告，却不迈向神要你走的路。
29.祷告会为我们作很多事，忧虑同样可以。
30.神祝福你，是要你成為別人的祝福。

birthday photos!

2009-11-15T03:39:00.005Z

Aloha!

finally the long-awaited photos which I hv promised!

The Surprise:

The super yummy cake made by Steph:

Group photo - the people who came

Categorising people:

(from left clockwise) SW's cell, batchmates, Lyn's cell and housemates

Food:

Presents:

My birthday post!

2009-11-09T23:29:00.007Z

I celebrated my birthday last week in the midst of lovely friends and (2/3 of my) family.

It was a great birthday actually. I never really expected so many people to come as I thought it would be just the house and maybe my course mates.

Steph 'conned' me to attend one of the classes she signed up to. I thought the topic 'the role of a junior doc' sounded interesting and I knew that she wanted to have me out from the house/cook for my bday so I agreed to go.

When I got home, I was escorted into Lynda's room.

I was so touched to see so many faces in the dark room glowing in the light from the candles of the bday cake and everyone singing the bday song.

How blessed and loved! Though I din receive many presents, but the companionship I had during my bday was more than everything and definitely priceless. Thanks everyone for making the effort to come even though it was a weekday and some were even rushing with assignment.

PS: pics will be uploaded soon after I get them from my housemate :)

Weekend is here!

2009-10-31T12:44:00.004Z

yay! weekend has finally come!

Happy halloween!

childhood books

2009-10-30T16:18:00.020Z

...

In Malaysia, this whole set would cost tons but I got it very cheap here!

I've finally laid my hands on this whole set of Roald Dahl's books!! I've decided to treat myself becoz my birthday was coming and to reward myself for working so hard over the past few years. Ever since I read 'Matilda', I have always wanted to read his other books. The collaboration between RD and Quentin Blake who did the illustration in the books made reading the books so enjoyable and fun. Even my brother Jon who hates reading books read every single RD books we had on the shelf at home.

Although I have grown out from these books, I still enjoy collecting childhood books just like how some people enjoy collecting stamps, board games or DVD. Somehow it rekindles the memory of how I loved reading them when the internet and computers were non-existent during those days.

During my high school days, my English teacher would always tell us, 'read more books, read more books!!' until I could hear her screaming in my head every night before I sleep. But it just simply echoes the importance of reading to improve our English and I find it really sad when parents willingly paid at least RM60 for their children's English tuition. The money can easily be used to buy story books/magazines which would help children develop good reading habit and improve their English.

I've got the joy

2009-10-29T14:37:00.008Z

I remember singing this song when I was in Sunday School and it was the joy we tend to forget as we grow older and get busy and frustrated with so many agendas in our lives. Sometimes when we feel troubled or frustrated with things in life, let us ask God to give us that joy in our heart so that we may have the peace that transcends all understanding and guard our heart and minds in Christ Jesus.

I've got the joy, joy, joy, joy down in my heart.
Where? Down in my heart!
Where? Down in my heart!
I've got the joy, joy, joy, joy down in my heart,
down in my heart
down in my heart to stay.

And I'm so happy. So very happy !
I've got the love of Jesus in my heart.
And I'm so happy so very happy
I've got the love of Jesus in my heart!

I’ve got the peace that passes understanding,
Down in my heart,
Where? Down in my heart!
Where? Down in my heart!
I’ve got the peace that passes understanding,
down in my heart
down in my heart to stay

And I'm so happy. So very happy !
I've got the love of Jesus in my heart.
And I'm so happy so very happy
I've got the love of Jesus in my heart!

essay time

2009-10-26T15:48:00.004Z

2500 words to finish by Friday.

Does 500 words per day sound good?

加油! 加油!

yay!

2009-10-22T19:06:00.006+01:00

Last week I received an email from the university:

"Dear Janice

Congratulation you are to be awarded a joint prize at the SSC Prizegiving event on 22nd October at 5pm. Please can I ask you to keep this confidential for now. Can I also ask that you arrive promptly and make yourself known to Dr xx, the Year 3 SSC Coordinator.

Kind regards and well done,
Josie"

It was my SSC 3.3 group project which won the prize. I was looking back at my old blog entries and I realised I never mention anything about it which I thought I would have. It was an audit on abbreviations used within the Leeds Hospital Trusts and there were 6 students in one group. Throughout the 5 weeks when we were doing the SSC, we spent half of our time in the musty, dingy, dusty old medical records department in St James; and LGI, looking through medical notes and fishing out abbreviations used by doctors. The other half of the time was spent sitting in front of the computer, synchronizing and analysing the data. It was hard work.

But our hard work has been paid off :). Thank God for that especially the opportunity He has given me to work with such a marvelous team and also for blessing us with the consultant who gave us guidance and help as much as he can.

God understands

2009-10-14T18:01:00.005+01:00

For the past few days, my facebook newsfeed wall has been spammed with lots of videos. Most of them were good and hilarious but this particular video topped my list:

facebook link if your network banned youtube lol

God can use anyone to do His mighty works.

so stressed!

2009-10-13T17:30:00.003+01:00

Sigh. In 4th year we have to get feedback from doctors for history taking and examination. It's very easy if we could get any doctors to sign, for example fy1/2, staff grade docs as I could clerk any patients in the A&E and present it to these doctors.

But they limit it to registrars and consultants!! argh!! it's nearing the end of this week (next week is my last but I won't be around in the hospital :( )and I still hvnt got any signed off yet!

I havent felt so stressed for a long time already but by hook or by crook, I really have to get these things done. sigh

:(

2009-10-07T20:10:00.005+01:00

All 5 siblings. No match.

Our single hope in medicine for complete cure in Jon's leukaemia has been dashed off.

Even when there's no chance in medicine and doctors, one hope is still left and that hope is within God. Let us put our trust and hope in God that He will perform His wonders and miracles in Jonathan. Pray that during this time God will always be with our family for He is our source of comfort and peace, our tower of refuge and strength. Please pray for our family.

3-layered tea!

2009-10-07T17:28:00.001+01:00

When I was in Miri, I had the opportunity to try the Teh C Special or 三色奶茶 which I grew to like but couldn't drink very often because I found it very sweet. Think about the calories! tsk tsk tsk

Anyway, when I went back to UK, I brought back a small container of gula Apong because I didn't manage to make the Teh C Special when I was back in Miri. The tea tasted more of evaporated milk because I think the tea I used wasn't strong and concentrated enough.

method:

1. add in the amount of gula apong according to your liking

2. add in ice

3. Then using a spoon (you know the Chinese spoon you use to eat porridge with?), slowly tilt the evaporated milk to the side of the cup. (I usually use 4 chinese-spoons of evaporated milk lol)

4. Repeat the same for the tea.

and you've got the 3 layered-tea!

PS: someone told me that some people pour the 3 layered tea contents in reverse order, ie, the tea first, milk and then sugar. I have not seen it before but if you do, please tell me yea :P

Be my everything

2009-10-04T21:32:00.002+01:00

God in my living
There in my breathing
God in my waking
God in my sleeping

God in my resting
There in my working
God in my thinking
God in my speaking

Be my everything
Be my everything
Be my everything
Be my everything

God in my hoping
There in my dreaming
God in my watching
God in my waiting

God in my laughing
There in my weeping
God in my hurting
God in my healing

Christ in me
Christ in me
Christ in me the hope of glory
You are everything

Christ in me
Christ in me
Christ in me the hope of glory
Be my everything

I pray and hope that God will be part of our lives each day. Let us not take God for granted but make Him be everything

aloha!

2009-10-04T02:18:00.004+01:00

I got back from my district hospital placement on Friday.

The condition in the flat was so bad I understood why people rather travel to and fro from Leeds instead of opting to stay there. There wasn't any heating at all, the door to my flat is unable to lock, kitchen window lock is broken and no hot water kettle.

Maybe I have been pampered too much in my previous accommodation so my expectations were high on this one. Nevertheless there are some good points to my one-week stay in it - as it was old, no deposit was required for the room, the shower room was big, there were hand towels provided in the kitchen & toilet, many power sockets (but I don't need many) and washing liquid was provided in the kitchen.

To give you an idea of how ancient the building is, this is a picture of the switch:

definitely built before I was born

The light directly on top of my bed shining so bright I felt like a neonate receiving phototherapy for jaundice.

Fortunately I was only there for a week

Off

2009-09-27T23:54:00.006+01:00

Magnificent view from the hilltop ain't it?Something you can't get in Msia

I'm off to the District Hospitals for a one week placement. The last hospital I went to had sheep 'baa-ing' right outside my window when I woke up. Very serene, peaceful and quiet environment.

Am looking forward to this placement as I will not be able to go online as often as I do as internet is not available in my dorm. I see this as a form of control to my internet addiction as I can't live without it.

Tata!

time

2009-09-27T01:52:00.008+01:00

Yesterday I just celebrated a friend's birthday who just turned 19 years old. Gee, thanks to Lynda for reminding me that I was the 2nd oldest in the group >.<

How I wish time could just stop where it was and be forever 19.

Peak District 2008. Did you see that jet plane trail?

Alice in Alice in Wonderland put it aptly, "But then, shall I never get any older than I am now? That'll be a comfort, one way --never to be an old woman -- but then -- always to have lessons to learn!"

that would be great don't you think so?

blogs

2009-09-24T00:51:00.004+01:00

It's really amazing how certain blogs attract people. Some people can do it with pictures but few words whereas some people only write but have no pictures in the entries. Yet yet yet...these blogs still draw the attention of hundreds, if not thousands of people continuously.

I guess it is the uniqueness these blogs possess which make them stand out from other blogs.

A few examples of blogs:

1. pictures only no words (but the author has stopped drawing pictures.)

2. words but no pictures (very interesting blog about a taxi driver who is a phd holder)

Interesting isn't it?

card reader

2009-09-12T12:35:00.003+01:00

I gave my dad my old card reader which I got off 7dayshop which sells pretty cheap gadgets(though not a lot) and accessories. Fortunately when I went back to UK, the card reader was on offer! 2.49pounds, buy one free one! inclusive of delivery charge as well! super good deal. I believe you can't get that kind of price in Msia as one card reader costs at least RM20 (daddy told me).

link

It's not the fanciful type and pretty basic but it is good enough for me. I don't need to insert my cable into my bulky camera to transfer photos.