Monday, July 05, 2010

4th year

I'm finally on my way back home, am in Dubai now waiting for my connecting flight to KL and in 10 hours I will be back!

I feel that everything that is happening now is surreal and yet it's true. I saw the same old pharm shop in Dubai which reminded me that I was here last year at around this time. The same old shop but an older Janice. This year has been a difficult year for me and yet it happened very quickly. Looking back, I am amazed at how I managed to pull through all the ups and downs and how much I have learned and gained throughout this whole year.

As promised before I would write more about my OSCE lol. It's weird that after exam, I tend to blog less but I guess it's like how some people always clean their room before exam and not doing it after.

I thank everyone from the bottom of my heart for the prayers during my exams. God is marvelous and He is great! Remember that I asked to be prayed for calm, peace and clarity of the mind during the OSCE? The first time ever (well actually it's only my 2nd OSCE lol), I did not panic at all during the exam, I was as cool as a cucumber and my mind was clear and not fuzzy and confused.

God was really at work and I could feel His peace. However, I lost His peace for a while after the OSCE on the first day as my mind ruminate the things that happened and how angry at myself for not saying the things which I should say.

I had trouble sleeping that night as my mind kept replaying scenes of the OSCE and things that I should have said. It took me gazillions toss and turns on the bed before I finally fell asleep. But I woke up 3 hours later at 4.30am unable to sleep.

My mind was tired and I felt that I could not continue the 2nd day anymore. Suddenly I felt that I was going to lose it. After working and practising so hard for the OSCE, I suddenly felt that I was about to breakdown 4 hours before the 2nd part of the OSCE.

My mind began to pray and pray asking God for His peace and seeking His strength to sustain me for the next exam. I think I finally understood what the phrase steph put on her msn, 'worry is something you permit, peace is something you pursue'. Finally I fell asleep 2 hours later. I woke up feeling refreshed and confident and I felt ready to fight on. Thank God!!

Many things could happen but God was watching over me throughout these.

I feel sorry for those who didn't make it. I cant imagine having to revise the whole set of notes and talking to my imaginary friend again and again during the holidays. Somehow passing OSCE is not proportional to the amount of practice in my opinion esp for year 4 exams. Maybe it's different in other uni, but I know for Leeds, it's not.

May God continue to be with them and give them strength to carry on.


Stephanie Ting said...

U shud write how 'God has blessed you in your exams' as a testimony and email eg cell members to bless them all. =p =p

mousie said...

I supposed you can start a new entry called "5th year: I am finally on my way back home... to Leeds." haha