I got my payslip for last week's overtime.
But when I looked at the payslip, my heart sank... =(
Over a hundred pounds of deductions! It's not worth working the extra hours. It's only making me tired and irritated.
That's what I told myself but then I found myself working the extra hours this week...sigh
This makes me think of what I just read recently. Human can never be satisfied. They will always want more.
Be it a parents' expectation on a child or monetary means or personal goals, once we have reached them, we gain satisfaction. But after a few days, it will wear off and we aim higher. we will never be satisfied. Just like an unscratchable mosquito itch. We can never take away the itch no matter how good we are by scratching. The itch will go away for a while, but then it will come back stronger than before.
Last time when I worked as a cleaner, I told myself, if only I could get a night shift job which pays me 8 pounds per hour
Now that I got it, I yearn for more. I hope that I could have more time to work overtime. I will always be looking at the overtime list in RM hoping there's a empty slot to put my name in for RM overtime. And when I got my payslip, I mourn at the amount of tax and NI contributions I have to pay.
King Solomon was the ever living person who had everything. He built a magnificent palace which took 13 years to finish. He had thousands of concubines, he was the smartest guy in the world...
But then, in the end he said, "I turned my heard and saw yet another wisp of smoke on its way to nothingness: a solitary person...working obsessively late into the night, compulsively greedy for more and more, never bothering to ask, 'Why am I working like a dog, never having any fun?..."
Even the greatest man on earth has walked down that path but never got satisfied.
I don't know where this post is going to, but my point is that we must learn to be content. Everytime I have to tell myself 'it could have been worse'. When I get my results, go to work or look at my bank account...I tell myself it could have been worse.
yeah, it could have been worse. So I won't be working OT during term time. Only during the holidays I'm allowed to work OT. Dun wana bring anymore stress and tiredness upon myself anymore.
PS: views adapted from 'when the game is over, it all goes back in the box' by John Ortberg. A very good book which I truly recommend to anyone to read =)